Damn These Pacts

Chloe and I always come up with these excellent game plans for improving our lives and pledge to each other to take actual steps towards our goal....but I never really follow through. She doesn't that much either. I think the main problem is that I am such a head case and while I am actually in situations that relate to the pact, I can't think clearly enough to embark on the correct course of action.

For instance, one of our recent pacts was to come to terms with the fact that our "everybody hates me" psychosis is not based on reality and then to stop thinking like that. But how exactly do you go about that? I don't know. And further, I am still convinced that most people here in Baltimore aren't exactly wild about me. Maybe I will grudgingly admit that I am on the paranoid side and that they probably don't all hate me. But I still don't think that they like me. Because boring is no fun...boring may not be straight up bad, but "boring is what it is".

And so, no progress there.

Plus these little plans of ours not only fail to positively impact my life, they negatively impact me when I end up feeling bad and anticlimactic for accomplishing nothing and still being in the same position I was to begin with. Accepting that an issue exists may be the first step to addressing it, but if you never succeed in addressing it accepting that it exists is really quite unhelpful and not fun at all.



"Honey, you could just give me jewelry for Valentine's Day. Diamonds maybe."
-My mother to my father (very uncharacteristic)
"Where did that come from?!"
-Me
"That billboard over there gave me the idea."
-My mother

Conspiracy that this led me to uncover: Jarred's (Gallerias of Jewelry or whatever) are always extremely close in proximity to Red Robins. What is that about? This is the case in Seattle, Tacoma and Baltimore. Very sketchy I think. I would say that we have a serious little secret right here and I'm about to blow that shit wide open.